A hug from you two, thats all life is worth

Live with a dozen bananas 

Yet you will feel the lonileness in your throat everytime you drink a glass of water.....

And just one day ....

All of a sudden

Your life turns around 

With more than just one person in your life....

Waiting for you

All day

Quietly ...,

Till you return home

Just to jump on ....

Wage their tail around.....

Hug you.....

Lick all over you....

With their micturating smell ??!!!!!

Trust me ....

A million baths doesn't take their aroma around you......

It stays....

It sticks.....

Its pleasant!

Because when all the love in the world 

Tries to kiss you.....

Nothing stops you from giving it back sucking your breath in .....

Out of my imagination....

Its nothing like human animal love.....

Beyond the skies of your world

Beyond the gravity thats pulls you to be a good soul .....

Much more......

Have someone in your life .....

If that isn't your goal ! What should be ?!

My world has turned upsidedown with two little ones ....

The reward for just being the new care taker of these two fatties.....

The love that we all deserve.....

Isn't too far away 

The love thats worth even if its for a short a while ! 

Treasure what is worth for the love you carry around...

Sussh

My two sons in the making

"How do you handle a kid" 

Is all i want to ask every living soul especially my mom!

How did you handle this stupid overtly possessive immature grown up till yesterday!

I look after one having diarrhoea  and then turn around to have another one eating its way to dysentery!

Its a nightmare 

I cant hug one .... it makes the other one jealous and riled up to start shouting at me 

"Yo hooman what do I look like to you?"

By the bloody way 

Im just talking about my two cute little puppies!

They are soo damn cute to take pictures wit ! Trained them for it !

They are so sooo damn bloody cute to play with !!!!! Dread my sweat for it !

Please please teach me to poop one at a time ! 😤😤

Thats every MOM's reaction 

To all of you being soo little cute puppy-like with your thing out !!!

Or ! Should you Experience it licking your fingers! To know how i feel !!! Or To bitch about why im complaining or just.....

To experience them coming and 

Just lying down in your leg side when they hear your voice! ...

Precious isnt it ???

Im still talking about the damn cute chewable puppies who poops 10times a day ! 

Kids make your life colourful! Aint they???

They just touch your soul and ofcourse every damn brain centres possible and make you nauseous nostalgic for the love you have always dreaded to have ! 

The children i thought i will never have !

Sussh

You are the tallest man in my life

Strong like the rock, not the fast and furious but the actual rock.

He made my bed,

Cut my nails,

Walked miles with me on his shoulders.

He did all this when I was old enough to remember how fragile he was getting.

All the energy he brought with him,

All the love he carried himself with,

The man never got older in heart.

A lot of changes that got convenient and comfortable today,

It was never like sleeping in the fresh air beside you mourning about your county's electricity schedule.

Love that gets spread everywhere not needed, 

He never wasted even words that spreads good deed.

He will be the only man in any Girls' life, who gives all the love, protects all her love from wasting.

Never have i seen a man live like a tall legend that he was,

Never have i seen a man leave like the king he should be.

sometimes how lucky you are is hard to appreciate,not till you have lost them but when you know you will never be able to find them back.

Just remembering how my kids will never be able to appreciate the fondness of being at the grandparents in the country.... 

sussh

I turned out to be just fine

Always grumpy little girl was what i used to be.

Irritatingly and pathologically introverted.

Even now it needs a lot of inhibitory substances for exorcism of the demon inside me, though.

Contrarily,

I turned out to be just fine, while growing up with you...

A very cheerful gal with lots of hope for future and always love,love for all the little things in life.

There could be so many big things and many gigantic moments in life..... but i would only remember jumping out of wardrobe, prank calling everyone, walking miles to save a penny, that huge dog doll sitting in my bed frightening me every night, these small small things would make an entire life to cherish, to make you watch the world with a beautiful eye. Isn't that what i learnt from you?!.

The love for small things, the love for everything around me, the love for everyone around me started when you saved every penny for my beach outing that I remember and think seriously balloons???? !!! 

You cannot write them 

You cannot just say them bluntly,

Having these moments and lived through all of it with you.

I turned out to be more than just fine 

Because all the love in this world was replaceable 

But you!, Nothing could replace someone who has created an awesome piece of artistic shit (Duh! Me) 

Brought up with love for little joys in life.

Sussh.

You are the one for me

There are no such things as "destined together"  or "soulmates for life".

There are no eternals in life too. 

You let go of every beautiful thing in life at each phase of life.

Because your life revolves like the earth, somedays you are just the dark knight saving yourself, other times you are simply the burning sun.

God (i hope not ), or fate doesn't choose who are destined for you, till your testament.

Its you, right or wrong, its obsolutetly you who you choose to the spend the rest of your life with, 

with whom you can smile without gifts,surprises....

With whose company you can be at ease talking abt how much you like T.Rajenderan.

With whose company you can just be the psychotic,rudely angry witch-type person pretending to be The Rock of WWE,

With whose company you can escape out of all the fart smell by checking the gate of life.

Its difficult.

It needs strength.

Not every phase of life is "happily ever after" like the cinderella story.... 'coz you ain't wearing the glass shoe ! 

And it kills your foot, each and every capillary of every blood vessel of your foot of every nano second to be in a glass shoe.

So,

Choose wisely,

Do you want the glass shoe or just the sponge bob bata shoe. 

Nothing is specially made for you.

All mass production has their own fault.

Go with the person with same "fault in your stars"

Not just about the mediocrity, sufficiency,

There are no "the one" 

But with whom you are tolerable,

Form a crescent moon at every downfall of life.

If the highest reach above you, THE SKY, doesn't teach you how to move forward....

Having the strongest belief in God and religion doesn't make any sense to me.

Nature is always at the best.

Go with the flow and 

Choose wisely,

Sussh.

Start from where you left smiling

Bull cart??

Roller coster???

Nascar race????

Life is not any of this ..... 

its very simple ......

Sometimes you breathe ....

Many times harder than you think......

Quiet often we forget ......

There are no endings and beginnings.....

Everytime you feel you should start from scratch 

You start from where you left smiling....

From where you jumped high in sky 

From where you  danced all night to make your feet dead

From where you sang all day about feeling eternal

From where you stopped breathing

From where you learnt what love was .....

Its okie when everything you start from seems different

From where you start again....

But it will be new

It will be peacefull 

It will give you a hope of sunshine

Just be there 

To watch the sunrise 

To shimmer the moonlight 

It might not be pink like you see today 

But it definetly WILL make you HAPPY whenever you see it FULL......

Because any fresh start will make your heart skip a beat 

Just like it did when you wanted ..,,,

That hope is what makes life smiling and eternal ....

Life will always be about memories 

Sussh

 

How To stop the soul search.

Growing up in a self-deported family is harder than you would imagine.....
Deported because nuclear family gone rogue ....
It's fun and frolic on the outside but deep down you would still be searching for the soul that's as deformed as yours....
Well no-one could come from that long line of lunatics....
The search stops when you realise ...no external force could turn your life upside down unless someone makes you fall on your back ...and you are not physics to follow all the laws...
And It's Okie if your past looks like a four year old artistic paint on the wall ...don't cry over ......like it's diamonds...
And it's absolutely Okie if you still stand in a que with a plate and a glass ... As long as it's not prison and you are not in for murder (  that would be cool though)....
About things that are yet to come ....Unless you are that type of a person who wakes up at the first beat of the first alarm in the morning, don't keep planning your future.... most of all,
Stop worrying about what people would say or think or do or crap ..... Unless of course they bring a gold coffin to your funeral party .... then yeah you should probably be nice to them ....
Learn to be with people who would actually put some effort to activate the two facial muscles (orbicularis oculi and oris) to smile .... those muscle activated smiles are called genuine smile ...rest are just social smile meaning FAKE ....
Yeah only when you stop the search outside and look inside of you .... you would  come up with all these kinds of crazy stuff  .

Be crazy. Be independent. Be detached. Be you.
Because the rest is just social.
Susshibelle