After Nepal...

Did I so much soon enter the real world ??

Yeah .... 

just after my graduation ....

Life is much after than your true love...

So much after all the pampering ....

The luxury .....

So much beyond ....

It will be like scratch from a penny.....

Just not how you imagine ....

Just not what you have enjoyed....

Like the coffee out of bed ....

The hot steamy water, flowing down your soft hair ....

Breakfast that you dont get to break your brain on.....

The car thats, all ready  without clicking 'ride now' .....

So so much beyond all these luxury .....

So much as starting your day dwelling your hands in cold water, with aluminium....

Washing your dry skin in cold ice water.... 

riding, covered like one of the masked men to kill someone.... 

god help you, to keep your eyes open in the middle of the night watching people suffer ..... 

bunk classes to travel somewhere to earn your fuel money....

Life is much more than those luxury

And much much more than what you have suffered ....

But my dear ....

Life pays you back ..... 

Back With a smile

And with gratitude ....

After all,

All of this has been for something that you deserve.

Sussh

So much love wasted

You were supposed to be my

Warm breezy blanket...

And Im your blossoming petal in autumn...

Because at every fall....

When all the leaves ruffle and wither...

I would be your violet flower....

So unfair.....

All this love is wasted ....

When my words just lay dry and brown 

Waiting for the sky to pour it down....

Its been a long summer 

And a very long autumn....

With all the gloomy shine I embrace my lips at dawn ....

Through dusk, pour all my fears in a glass....

I wish to survive .....

Survive to dance in the rain ....

Buried under the snow as cold as my heart is ....

After all, A heart wants what it wants

Sussh

AMUTHA

"VAZHVIN AMIRTHAM" ("who made me live") 

A very challenging,intense, courageous and out of your imagination, extremely outrageous! 

She would challenge you, like the asteroid, who could never strike our earth.....at any face of a destroyer ....

And that my friend ........

 are the meaning, of,  AMUTHA.

For Me ...

She wouldn't fight for you,

but 

Stand by you..... 

At all darkness....

At all wars of life..... and 

if truth Stays buried....

And 

Some heart cries for help..........

there,

She will be,

 just beside you.....

That support ....

It will .... 

trust me .....

It Will push you ......

Soo far 

and that ....

Just those words, beside you....

Will make you achieve more and more......

Just beyond what you have wished ......

Beyond what you are capable of......

And,...

just like that ....

She pushed me , further than I would !

A Mentor, she was....

Mentored the right and wrong,....

Taught me ....

For all the wrong in the world to be safe from.....

Following...every word beside every gear I drove .....

10schools and two medical university 

Trust me, travelling so far and finally, coming to a HEART SO CONSOLING, COMFORTING AND AS A MOM, was a true blessing, 

I WOULD CHERISH.....

 FOR LIFE......

Akshaya ne phele mila tho( if only i had her before).......

And just like that .....

If only 

Had I been hers and ....

A daughter......

And thats how you, just blindly follow their words.....

STAY STAFE AND BE Connected 😍

Mother's love never resides to another child ....

Your child who writes anonymously,

Susshmitha Ramesh 

It wouldnt have been the end of the world!

So we would have struggled a little more harder to survive....

Little more sober and 

The coutless sleepless nights......

Lived a terrible nightmare!

Dont we all live for something that would make our hearts, skip a beat and die in that tiny little happiness???

It would definitely never be the end of the world!

Life would never and forever get better 

Just postponing things till you are ready!

Take the risk ..... ( and God forbid if i had, ever heard your voice)

Sulk in the pain .....( only if you had chosen  the road not taken!)

Live with the scar.......( for,it will teach you not to trust and be happy)...

So what .....

Life would have been cruel....

but if it isn't worth just all of it ....

Would your world end ..... still! ???

When you live to see that tiny lip smile at you 

Could it end your world...?

Sussh

Kaanalneer - stencilling to my heart word

Mirage! 

Thats the meaning of the most beautiful word i have heard in tamil!

It stricks a bell with thousand stars shinning on my eyes! 

We all live in a world of mirage!

But there is this story!

Of a golden fish!

(Golden fish because its short-lived! )

It swam across a million ocean of hearts! 

Very quietly and yet mischievously.....

Mischievous in its own way.....

But it wanted to breathe ....

Breathe some air......

Fluttered its way....

Its dark dark black eyes yearning some air.....

Jumped up so high .....

Touching all the stars ....

Shinning its way down ....

My gills smelled your fresh air......

Stopped my heart a beat!

Still landed ......

Landed in your ocean ....

A Mirage.....

(Kaanalneer ......)

Could i ever blame the storming Sun on me ! 

I would never blame ....

But every time i would forgive myself .....

Because

Your redolence gave my after life.....

I would still flutter and wiggle ..... 

For I'm out of gills.....

Evolution would still make me survive! 

There might be plenty of fish in the ocean....

But.... it takes just one,to jump out of all ....

My Darwin's theory

Sussh

Your dark glowing eyes

Is it dark brown or light black ?

I dont know ! Whats so taunting and disturbing!

Disturbing everytime when it glows in your smile! 

Disturbing whenever it glows amidst every rain!

The value I put on you, who looks into the eye for every conversation with me! Is totally worth all the risk! 

All the pain!

Especially All the scar!

Because from the day i knew you, i just know what i was looking into! 

It was not the laughter, not the smile when you see me, but something thats not explainable!

Genuine!

And i would know whenever you look away from me and tell me anything with a smile! 

If its a lie that you fool your heart with! Or just the world is too cruel for your truth! 

Trust your eyes that someone seeks!

They know! And I know ......

Because there is nothing you could tell me that your eyes doesnt! 

And nothing, that your eyes does!

Your eyes talks more than your heart does,

To me

Sussh

Never say no to love

Right or wrong ...

Dont waste your time thinking what to do or what to say....

Just be in love ....

With everyone....

With all the little things someone does for you.....

Never say no....

Dwelling in the past ....

Welling up with unsaid love....

Gets you nowhere at peace

Life will give you a million chances

Dont suffer in the end for one more chance....

Because being in love for someone is the most beautiful gift ....you can give

It will make you stronger

It will make you leap reaching the sky....

It will make you alive ....

Say it now ....

Say it every time...

With lots of words and a beautiful smile....

Loudly expressed Love, never hurts

Sussh

A weak heart

Little did they know about him to say that about his heart.....

He had a heart like iron....

That can withstand any kind of heat ....

But it melts ....

Weakens with rain.....

Rain like my tears....

Rain like a beautiful smile.....

Rain like the deafening laughter......

His strength .....

His weakness.....

Everything lies within us .....

The man's heart is strong like the rarest metal .....

It cannot be dug out .....

It cannot mend with anyone else's but ours......

The man's heart fights, pours in anger .....

It fights in the weakness....

It fights in the pain....

It will war with anything you give on him....

And it would emerge more stronger everytime .....

Everytime he wobbles, he stood back amidst us ...   

Like he always said 

He is the king of this house 

A king surrounded by the queen and his little princesses.....

A king with a heart that weakens for nothing but love

Only love.

Remember, your heart only beats for someone else 

Sussh