Saturday, October 14, 2017

Yet again another one???!

Why this many tattoos?????


Because its painful !

Yeah tattoos are really painful....FYI

And who actually told you.. a doctor is not supposed to have tattoos??

Anyway....

I had my first tattoo 6years back...

Just to hide my scars ... it took me a while to realise its not the scar but the love i wanted to express...

Its an introvert thing about expressing thing....

Once my mother said “unless its the great alexander’s funeral showcase, it doesnt matter who comes to your death”

Alexander is the great king who conquered the world and materials that no one could ever own. He finally realised,its all going to be taken away,in his death bed. He had just three wishes ....

All of those you could find it in google....

What i learnt .... is  .... 

The doctor you are , 

The princess that you are ...

Death is inevitable ....

Take what you can....

Just what you can....

Not anything more .... anything less 

You lived a life time....

With soo much memories 

So much love 

So much scar 

Bury it with dignity 

With everything you love ....

If you think tattoo kills you....

Love kills you even faster ....

Well ofcourse much worser evil kills you very soon....

But 

I live and i live with all the love i want to share...

Im happy for this life ... and everyone i have ever loved ....even after every hurt 

Because love is always there ... never fades .....

I die ... die with everyone i loved .... 


No regrets 

Sussh


Thursday, October 5, 2017

Ineffable emotions...


Let your hair down...

The breeze wrapping you in its warmth

Tiny sleazy drops... drop by drop...

Down the soft skin

I could cry a river 

And no one would ever know...

But the warm blanket wrapping me like a wall....


Let your hair down....

There will be a wind ...

To swipe your feet of the floor

Makes you fly like there is no limit....


You smile and then cry ...

And thats the difference happiness brings...


Let your guard down

For there are no emotions like yours 

To break the wall built around you...

Sussh


Wednesday, October 4, 2017

The long drive that took turns...


Not as great as you would imagine 

Opening up your heart....

That, at some particular age ...

You eventually do it with someone  you meet and fall over....

but opening up your mind ...

Happens very very rare....

Because all the devil in your soul stops you right there....

It just takes one long drive and a better companion ....

Calm quiet and you try to realise how a clutch together with break, works ....

All the way back and forth you keep talking ..... 

talking for seven hours straight ....

Nothing but religion , your identity, every damn little thing that haunts you....

Haunts your identity....

Haunting what you are....

If you just would ever think about it every now and then .....

You would still be not searching for answers....

You are who you are ....

Stop the search ....

Move on ..... just then would you be right where you want to be....

No, 

not by changing yourself.....

Nothing defines who you are....

So.... 

coming back to my long drive....

Driving is my passion....

But how have i not tried this kind of drive ....

I have the answers....

Your passion motivates you ! TRUE THAT! 

But your company enhances it ! 


Deny that! ???


All the answers are right within you..

Stop searching 

Move on...

Just make the questions right! 

Sussh


Sunday, October 1, 2017

The bond between satan and I


Oh seriously! Satan ! If thats the word!

Satans disguise .....

And to prove it unethical....

We are long way from,Before Christ.....

Not religious enough to talk it through .....

But in today's world.....

To prove right or wrong.....

The only example of "The Difference" is....

If you are on the other side of the road driving.....

Kid, you get no compensation.....

So suck it up..... its wrong ....

See kids .... 

there are moments you are so angry at your choices.....

But when your day comes....

You would realise ...

And, At that moment,you are not angry anymore with your satan and the choices you make....

You would see who is meant to be....

You might think your only choice is to swallow your anger .....

And float it up their faces.....

There is another option....

You could just 

LET IT GO......

And only when you do it ....

It will be gone and you could move forward...

That kids....

Would be an end ......

An end to all disguise you swallow... to realise.....


Satans are disguisable......

Either pray or be prey...

Sussh

Thursday, August 31, 2017

After Nepal...


Did I so much soon enter the real world ??

Yeah .... 

just after my graduation ....

Life is much after than your true love...

So much after all the pampering ....

The luxury .....

So much beyond ....

It will be like scratch from a penny.....


Just not how you imagine ....

Just not what you have enjoyed....

Like the coffee out of bed ....

The hot steamy water, flowing down your soft hair ....

Breakfast that you dont get to break your brain on.....

The car thats, all ready  without clicking 'ride now' .....

So so much beyond all these luxury .....

So much as starting your day dwelling your hands in cold water, with aluminium....

Washing your dry skin in cold ice water.... 

riding, covered like one of the masked men to kill someone.... 

god help you, to keep your eyes open in the middle of the night watching people suffer ..... 

bunk classes to travel somewhere to earn your fuel money....

Life is much more than those luxury

And much much more than what you have suffered ....

But my dear ....

Life pays you back ..... 

Back With a smile

And with gratitude ....


After all,

All of this has been for something that you deserve.

Sussh


Tuesday, August 29, 2017

So much love wasted


You were supposed to be my

Warm breezy blanket...

And Im your blossoming petal in autumn...


Because at every fall....

When all the leaves ruffle and wither...

I would be your violet flower....


So unfair.....

All this love is wasted ....

When my words just lay dry and brown 

Waiting for the sky to pour it down....


Its been a long summer 

And a very long autumn....

With all the gloomy shine I embrace my lips at dawn ....

Through dusk, pour all my fears in a glass....

I wish to survive .....

Survive to dance in the rain ....

Buried under the snow as cold as my heart is ....



After all, A heart wants what it wants

Sussh


Monday, August 28, 2017

AMUTHA


"VAZHVIN AMIRTHAM" ("who made me live") 


A very challenging,intense, courageous and out of your imagination, extremely outrageous! 

She would challenge you, like the asteroid, who could never strike our earth.....at any face of a destroyer ....


And that my friend ........

 are the meaning, of,  AMUTHA.

For Me ...

She wouldn't fight for you,

but 

Stand by you..... 

At all darkness....

At all wars of life..... and 

if truth Stays buried....

And 

Some heart cries for help..........

there,

She will be,

 just beside you.....

That support ....

It will .... 

trust me .....

It Will push you ......

Soo far 

and that ....

Just those words, beside you....

Will make you achieve more and more......

Just beyond what you have wished ......

Beyond what you are capable of......

And,...

just like that ....

She pushed me , further than I would !

A Mentor, she was....

Mentored the right and wrong,....

Taught me ....

For all the wrong in the world to be safe from.....

Following...every word beside every gear I drove .....


10schools and two medical university 

Trust me, travelling so far and finally, coming to a HEART SO CONSOLING, COMFORTING AND AS A MOM, was a true blessing, 

I WOULD CHERISH.....

 FOR LIFE......

Akshaya ne phele mila tho( if only i had her before).......

And just like that .....

If only 

Had I been hers and ....

A daughter......


And thats how you, just blindly follow their words.....

STAY STAFE AND BE Connected 😍


Mother's love never resides to another child ....


Your child who writes anonymously,

Susshmitha Ramesh