Saturday, December 19, 2015

Wedlock ! When you understand !

Wedding is an auspicious(of course) joy when you get married by an NRI FATHER to another Multimillioner to make a Guinness record !!!(well I'm just talking about the wedding DAY here,though) 

But otherwise talking, wedding is a lock ! I just dint understand the phrase "Happy Wedlock"  at that time ! 

When you are in India, WEDLOCK is an actual thing literally !!! You need to depend on everything to your spouse..... No not just financially if you are a home maker but ACTUALLY on everything !!! For the love of God !  I'm not even going to elaborate on the tiny little things we go through! 

The bigger picture here is, when you have to make a LIFE-CHANGING decision here, you have to get the approval form signed ! 
Damn its like signing an Life insurance form ! Will we die ! Should we sign ! No it's a bad omen to sign ! What are you doing ! Are you going to die ! What , you have that much money to hide ! 
It's hilarious,though to know what people think from all the pain you go through !!! 

I don't mean the world who laughs or questions they ask ! But your own family thinking what you ask is weird ! 

And at the very end of the argument of my family goes "DOES YOUR HUSBAND APPROVE" 

that made me sad, in the place, I'm Put out to live in ! 
Even though My Husband would approve anything I ask ..... It's hurtful to know that your own blood would question your judgement ! 

Women are captive , still soooo captive under a man's world !!! 

We were made to live under a man's world !!!! My childhood was ......No, dad won't like it , Are you serious, Dad will kill you ! Do you even think your Dad will let you do it ! 

And now it's just another fancy word for Men ! 
I would much better if I were a Guy ! 
And 
Why wouldn't  a woman/girl, think of changing herself to a Man in this kind of World ! 

With so much rules to break 
Sussh 






Thursday, December 10, 2015

Stuck between 2014 & 2016

I have a paper full of resolutions still unsolved for 2015 
And they say it's getting over in 21days...

Still stuck in between everything I own 
Stuck between two circles 
One with him 
Another circle that swirls around my dear friends ! 
I'm supposed to have this phase a long way before !
Yet here iam 
Trying out every possible psychology to be in social phobia 

Things never go as you plan ... Does it ? 

Each and every 365 pass and I'm still wondering what to do with what I have....
My mom still keeps saying "Even this would pass " 
Stay strong ! 

So I guess my 2016 is just going to being myself and let it pass ! 
Coz there is nothing better to do after all it's your life in which you can make a million mistake and still love it ! 
I guess !!!!!! 
It's damn easy to con every human in the world but yourself ! 
Sussh



 

Saturday, December 5, 2015

When you have to disown .....

You don't have to loose everything ..

You don't have to ask for help to a complete stranger for water ...
You don't have to wait for your next meal....
You don't have to get scared of water and leave everything behind.....
You don't have to give up a life earned house under a loan to survive ......
You shouldn't have to leave a BMW car in the middle of a road for life.......
You shouldn't live under incomplete roof being scared........
You shouldn't  stay locked up in one crore worth house when there are shelters under your house..........
You weren't supposed to walk inside waters scared of reptiles.........
You weren't supposed to have 'no pets' rules, because it's very disheartening to see them shiver and cry for food.........
You shouldn't be worried about your future that you have planned for years...........

NO it's so unfair 
You shouldn't have everything and run for life 
Nor 
Should you be scared for life just because you don't have what they call money  
Life is so unfair 
You are not supposed to, and yet it happened .... 
But to see everything happen in front of your eyes, each and everything .....

It's time that we realise it's more than money to be human 
The LIFE you have now is all you have ..... 
Nothing else ..... 
Just a 24 hour normal rain would do, to crush all your dream to bring everything down to your knees ......... 
You don't need guns and blast to show you .....
As simple as water air and the Mother Nature is enough to show you ....
This life is all you have 
Appreciate what you have now 
Start living each moment 
Rather planning 5 years from now .....
You never know what would happen ....
Trust me you would never know .....

What you really have now is precious enough to go forward ! 
Disown everything ... The high paid job, the highly respected property, that lousy car...
What is it all worth ?? Your life ?? That smile you see in a selfie ???? 
Disown yourself to see what you have now .... 
It was very hard to see every single soul suffer not out of death but out of scare what might happen, being so unsure what will happen to what they owned .... 

When nature teaches you to just SHUT UP LISTEN and LEARN ..........

Love the precious time you have left 
Sussh 



Thursday, December 3, 2015

YES! CHENNAI lost ....

We accept ...
Every Chennaite lost ...
Lost their time , lost their work, lost their selflessness, lost their ego, lost their fight for world .... 

Lost everything to stand together  
Above all we lost few souls.

Yeah maybe this natural disastrous is because of us ! .....

We saw how a common man could have his dream crushed ....
We saw how a man with a worthy car could get stranded in the middle of nowhere that he thought was infront of his home....
We saw people leaving their home,all their generation, for life ........

With few spirits still lost. Yes we lost.

There is just not a single soul that dint step into waist deep water for someone else .....
Even if there were,those people who were scared to step out, ...... We were there 
No one stepped out for self recognition 
No one stepped out for business 
No one stepped out for profit
No one cared who dint...
No one cared who couldn't ....
None of us cared who caused this.....
None of us cared who saw what's happening to us .....


CHENNAI. That is  cut off the rest 
That is  cut off power 
That is cut off networks 
Someone amongst us,out there is still helping
That trust is there with everyone of us 
That trust keeps everyone of us moving ...

We would still thrive 
We would still survive anything together 
But yeah as you say we lost ... Drowned 
we lost .... We lost few souls 

Nevertheless  ....
We would loose no more to stand together ....
Even if it's the nature .......
we are sticking together .....no matter what comes by 
Even this .. we would cross .... 
That hope is why we call us not just chennai but "NAMMA CHENNAI" 
Dot 
Sussh/ from CHENNAI 

Monday, November 30, 2015

When my DAY is finally there !

Lyf is too complicated ! 
It's too hard to forget and nearly impossible to forgive !! 
That's all about lyf you have to understand you might think !!!

But sticking to one thing that brings you happiness when you can't even try to smile. 
And 
Being with someone with whom you can be at ease .... 
The one person with whom you can say 'No' anytime you feel like ...
The one person with whom you can feel comfortable being ugly whatsoever but they don't have to say you are 'beautiful' but just think 'I LOVE YOU' 
The one person with whom you can fight and beat the to death yet they cook and pack your lunch just because you are sick 

THATS ALL THAT MATTERS ! Doesn't it !!??????

Love !!!

That's lyf I can say !!! 

And yeah you can complain all you want but when your day comes and still you say 'stick a fork in me I'm done and happy ' 

That's lyf ! 
I'm ter !!!!

Cherish what you have ! 
Tc !


Tuesday, October 27, 2015

When my world is silent

It's not who stood by you when you can stand on yourself !
And to come to that stage is so painful and difficult ......
But without my better half it would have been soooooo tearing apart ! 
MY BETTER HALF ! Is the man who is still standing with my bipolar to just see me smile ! 
 
It just started with our eyes looking at each other of course ! LOVE AT FIRST ! 
That is what it was for me though ! 
It indeed is STILL ! 
Every memory was sooooo in the clouds with the Angels ! 
These two WORDS ! That spoiled a bit of us is .... MARRIAGE and our SOCEITY ! 
Marriage is what our society got us into ! 
So we finally got into a lantern where we made our own rules !!!!
Yeah ! Took us time to get into it ! 
Not all your fingers are same ! 
So we are like that kind ah couple ! 
We just don't fit in your books ! 😜😜😜😜 and since I get it now ! I don't care anymore ! 
Isn't it our lyf !!!!
So we thought we'd make our lyf KING size !!!!!
And here we are !!!!! 
3yrs after marriage !!!!!
And 9 awesome years of tolerating each other !!!!!!!
PLEASE BE JEALOUS OF US  😜😁😁😍😍😍😍😍

WITH SOOOOOO MUCH LOVE RYT NOW 

Monday, September 28, 2015

When you need look through....

BIt doesn't matter how well off you could be to support someone !
All that matters is when you hold out your shoulder for someone when they need it without saying  !!!!!
You can't do that for life if you don't love them !!!!
Well !!!! This is basic philosophy s**t everybody knows !
But how many are fooled with people who do that for benefit or for temporary clinging !!!!
Exactly !!!! When you shift 9 schools  and survive boarding school 7years you would understand who express truthfully !!!!!! That comes naturally !!!!
After, sooo many years , only you would be able judge them after all!!!!!!! 
It's always hurtful to come across such fake ones !!!!
Nevertheless it's okie !!!!!! 
Even if you don't know there are people like MAYA'S mom (quoting to a Tamil horror movie ) to look after in our shadows !!!! 
When you have the heart to accept the soul in your shadow , you attain a maturity !

To the ones who protect 
Tc
Sussh

Wednesday, September 16, 2015

When yu jus feel it

Feeling soooo eternal right now !!!!  I tell you !!!!!
Oh ! By the way I'm talking about feeling the love !!!!!!!
When I couldn't keep a secret and I had to talk to my love !!!!!!
 My machiiiiii !!!!!! 
It's hard to understand love and I have not felt this relived since 1990 (I'm that old 😜) 
When you talk to your love for few minutes and the pain just vanishes like HARRY POTTER waving his BROOMSTICK  that's love !!!!!! And being high in love is the purpose everyone is fighting for ! But they just don't realise it yet !...... It's that to have one person, when you talk to and you realise that's it every craphead has just disappeared ! Just like that !!!!!!! With breaking one knuckle !!!!!!
It's not what you own that vanishes in paper that matters ......it's the love that just strengthens with more words !!!!!! 
I think that's what makes us so different from everything else....... Because we can express that magic with words .....


When your magic of life is love ....... 
Keep talking ....... 😁😁😁😁😁

soooo happy in love with my machiiiiii right now ! 
Sussh  

Sunday, September 13, 2015

GONE GIRL ......

Gone girl........When the trailer was on I was like ..... Okie it's about a husband beating his wife (so usual Tamil drama man)  ! Not for me !  ........... MY HUSBAND would die for me if I have knife/gun to shoot him in the chest ...... Still .... Somehow ......... Tis is me writing ....,.......... Yet this movie was so moving and it did touch me bcoz ...... yeah it's all the guys in India ..... It's everyone here .... Means every guy.....EVERY GUY .. You bloody expect us to change our whole world for you and yet you think you are free to do wat  you want just because we are the same since you fell for us ( LOVE IS ALWAYS LOVE FOR US  v cud never change ) .... is such bull shit ....(at least don't expect us to be the same if you want tat kinda. Lyf)  
That movie reminds me of soooooo many things that is sooo hard to say out but ....... If any woman is soooooo efficient to do that stuff to these immature men ,.... is effing soooo great ,.... I swear ....... It's actually impractical in the society I live in ,......... Quoting from the movie the girl says " I did wat he wanted (censored) , I ate cold pizza , watched his favourite movie , I turned into his cool girl tat he wanted " 
Well that's wat every girl turns into ? To wat he likes ........ It's just tat none has gone sooooo far like the gone girl !!!!! 
Just a thought ......in case if that ever does happen maybe they would be scared to take love so granted like this (like how they do now ) ............ TO TAKE LOVE FOR GRANTED ......
God bless men 

Lots of love for women who have the will power to fight these men 
Tc
Sussh

Friday, August 21, 2015

Thin line to bcome a bitch !

Ther is God created( I literally don't know who did tat)  ,  The God created us ! Then we create a world full of hatred !!!!!! As of I know myself ! Im such a wannabe!!! But when there are people  to make it miserable, I can't resist being a bitch ! 
World is such an illusion none of us understands !!!! 
There is just one thing to live ! 
Forget who belittles you ,
Forget who back bitch you(ter s nothing yu can do about it ) , 
F**k who irritates you (it's beyond your standard ) 
 
Y such an aggressive post !????? 
Nothing but I see a lot  of people who wants to go up with the legs of someone ! They just don't get its painful to pull them down ! Some people are brought up that way (NOTE NOT BORN THAT WAY ) 
Anyways there people to teach you lessons of life after school ! 
So it's good to have them in a way ! 
In that note 
Love and love only is lyf !
Sussh  

Sunday, July 19, 2015

Wat makes yu grow !!!

Something's need assistants !!!

I know that , because I couldn't have passed out to be a doctor without that so called assistants !!
But life !? Seriously ! Everyone of us goes to school , not to learn French and Spanish ,but what life is  ! 
But these guys in India has to grow up nomatter what . Seriously , what is with them ???? 
Trust me , no women understands you and your affection towards your mom unless you do, with our affection for you and our mom Bro ! 
When A woman sees her mother inlaw complain about her daughter's mother inlaw , you better take your s**t out ! 

If you want a woman to be a good daughter inlaw , you better try to be a good son to just shut up and try to grow yourself ( you know !  😜) 
Because now we have come to a time , if we have to bend over backwards , you have to try lifting your leg too !!! 

If I could bomb out all guys 
Sussh 


Saturday, July 18, 2015

3 women and my dad !

When a guy tells yu " dude it's not a good idea , don't get married " just shut up and listen to him . 
He is right, like always !!!!
A father with three girls .... Respect him no matter what ! 
My dad deserves a standing ovation !!!!! 
Because a wife who never listens to him , the daughter who is always stubborn and me always hating him .... Yet he manages to make us all happy ! A man who could think of us only .
A man , even when checking out a girl , could only think of how nice that dress could be for my wife ! Or a earring which could be glittering dangle on my daughter !!! That's all he could think !!!! 
It's overwhelming to see him smile and laugh sooo on one day with me ! Sharing a two month story ! 
It's so rare to find a man like that ! How much ever he flips ... He still makes me laugh when I need it !!! 

With so much love for him
Sussh 

Friday, July 3, 2015

Yea ! That shadow could be yours

"Even in darkness your shadow leaves you" is too cliche for me right now .
Because ther is always light (someone ) to make the shadow look so beautiful for you ! 
I know ! It's so late that I realised its not your shadow but the light shining upon you makes it pretty. 
I found that glittering light in who make me beautiful (oh! I don't mean the selfie alone ) but they make my life so beautiful.


She is .... I tell you very very different ....... And not only the infinity times I love her but she loves me too ......
Pretty 😎. unconditional ( no description ter. Required ! I know !) 
Composure like a rockstar ! 
Attitude - okie try wat yu got (like all the time of lyf ) 
So calm , so polite 
Okie yeah I adore her and admire her because not everyone is made like Tis and in all the places I have been she is definitely one of a kind 
I think I'm just going to stick to her and pester her more ! 
When she gets pestered I will just make a stupid joke for her to slap me 😁😁😁😁😁😁
With sooooo much love ryt now 
Sussh  


Monday, April 27, 2015

It may take long ! Bt im gonna fake it anyway

I can feel how my darling ayshu felt when I got married !
Not so different our wedding was !
Same register office ! But different agent !
My agent gave too much off effect to get us all scared !
Hers was a cool office ! It was like getting your convocation certificate !!!!
So similar ! Yet so different !
We had too much problems !
We made to get our asses out to forget them !
Yet so different problems !
I seem to not get over it ! Over the fact that our life has grown apart ! Of course we are gonna talk ! Thanks to WhatsApp and soo many apps !
We are gonna meet !
But its like an end to an era ! .....

No one can be like us !
We just strike ! Just like that !
Whoever calls out ! That's a date !
I can never have that feel with my husband !
Coz that's how friendship is !
More than anything you can imagine

For people outside the box always feels , argghhhh ! Its like too much !
But to just go get a parcel n hide in the terrace and eat
To make a date for just put on make up and sleep
To ride in 2 scooty and drive in the parrelel lane in front of a bus
To just drive and listen to songs

I miss my DJ
I miss my everything of my better half !
But its all for better ! ? Everything in gods eyes has a reason !
So I'm just going to be back to normal ! How much ever it takes to fake all of it !

How much I wish it to be  different of the different
Sussh

Friday, April 24, 2015

When you cant cry

Shu is our signature ! Bae is our poop word ! Baby ma is our recent discovery !!!

No people ! Friend is not about how many years ...
Its when you see someone and know "shit tey r crazy like me "
We can make better plan in 10sec and go to a fall with biriyani parcel than a costlier vacation planned for a week !

Its a wavelength that never cracks !

Ayshu ! Was my memory-less word ! Sometimes I tell my husband "ayshu I love you !"
Coz that's my default word fixed in 11th class when our eyes met by mutual friend intro!!!!

Ours is a pure love story that no one can understand !!!!
We went in different path but sticked together whatsoever !
Oh! We found time for each other all right ! Not coz v should, it just happened !
Not coz v had tym ! V never met often ! V never spoke, like so rare ! BT when  v do its gonna take 48hour break to return to normal life !
V r crazy ! V r kids when v r together ! V still sing soo loud riding scooty ! V still make a big plan n sleep off eating biriyani at home !
Not ,so right to say,still ! Coz tats forever ! Wenever n however v r ! So old ! So tired ! So ugly ! So fat ! So lazy for fashion !

Coz friendship can never change !
Coz friendship happens once unlike love !
Ayshu
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Wednesday, April 22, 2015

My machi all my mind !!!!

Time doesn't matter man !!!

Its the wavelength that clicks with only few people !!!

Every time I come with a blog there is something to say !
But my emotions get stuck in my trachea (oh ! In my mouth ) this time 😑😡😢
Its like I knew my machi for long ! And to know not to see her , not to sit near her .. not to roam around for coffee and back to department, not to bunk college and go briniyani hopping, get beaten up for stupid silly things i get ragged for ,not to have alone museum time (just us time with the boys to rag ), not to go GOCART and come out loosing to her... to see her win 11 laps,not to pose all crazy dramatic pose, not to play basketball ( though I suck so much in it in front of her !)
Most of all I can't imagine how much its going to cost a call to sharjah !!!!! Coz I'm gonna need alot of them !!!!!
I know everyone who loves her would feel the same tear in the eyes and heart breaking moment but mine is gonna be huge!!! 😭😭😭😭😭😭 

When your feelings comes first than anythning else
And its hard to go back from the beginning !!!!
Sussh

Monday, April 20, 2015

Dad-my creepy pillar strong man

From belts to dog chain to whatever-you-cant think !
My dad has been our weirdest creepiest intolerably short-tempered man.

But Finally its us the three princess in his life !
A little disciplined, a little shut-up-our-mouth he is the king of our kingdom ! And he is going to pour his fortune for whoever keeps us that way, except his wife ;) no one can win her over him !!!!

Its utterly impossible to find a man with so much love so much anger and whatever it is he keeps pushing us to sky!
At the end of the day his anger melts and starts from the beggining to advice how to glow brighter than the sun !

His way of living - burn in the sun but not in the thought of it !
Quiet not easy to follow though when you have too much baggage :P surprising how he never thought of us like it ! He kept running tieing a rope on us !!
He runs and still keeps going !

Evalo adichalum thaanguraru :P
Sussh

Friday, April 17, 2015

Will you not marry me ?

I propose "will you not marry me ??? Pls ;)"

Way ahead married and running...
If Being in love feeling  is magical... then  marriage is the only way out of that magic-alias-illusion.
Oh ! By the way all boyfriends and now roaring husbands would be the great magicians !!! ;)
And mine was the best ! Seriously though ! :P

love that's different ! Its blissful...
The emotional war to win over your dads love , the gifts and perks to make you pout ;) !!!! And much more I say (you know;) )
But marriage is not bad after all ....the only problem is when god made guys he just thought creating them perfect would insult girls /women !!!
When it comes to marriage and responsibility they search a well and jump into it to chase rats like cats ! They just don't realise or they are born that dumb.. rats don't live in a well !!!!!
When you have to marry for the society you grew up in..it puts in too much in your hands and then that hand strangulates your honey-sweet-bunny...
I say meet halfway between love and marriage, stop there ! Coz if you move front it will sting and move back it will kick !!!

The magic only last as long as you believe in the illusion.
Keep calm and not marry ! :P ;)
Sussh.

Wednesday, April 8, 2015

Pathetic to be old ???

Tell me all about it !!!!
Its my bday and how much I feel old only the one who created me knows of it ! ( yeah I mean God)
Being married is like being called "grandma,why are you walking?"
Trust me one time even my mother who used to think I would still drink milk from feeding bottle asked for her grandson(oh! I'm just writing it soo very diplomatically! ;). )
Every bday I cross, I'm like bloody hell ! What did i ask for last year ! 😝😝
Forget about family tree for heavensake , when I plan an outing with my friends, they are like , com'on yaar its Monday tomorrow ! I have work !  And I'm still like yeah I have college ! I have to go sober ! (You get my frustration right?)
Well , all those things aside life is always amazing ! You just have to look at the bright side ! 😝😝😝😝
I smile everyday ! (Sorry I laugh everyday and of course I bring a smile in someone in a day ! Leave my husband he is one saint 😝😝😝😝😝)
All the way through too much of downs and,yeah right,ups!!!! I have been soo happy with handful of friends who knows how crazy or how dumb Im. <facepalm>
I feel happy that for once I feel getting old is after all not so a big deal !!! Only your treat bill is divided 😝😝

Thank you karma for being nice
Tc!
<xoxo>
Sussh

Sunday, April 5, 2015

'Cos happinees is in you

So long ! Good to be back!

Blogging WAS ALWAYS my stress reliever !!!
At least  after reading my blog it feels like it so...

College is awesome...
And life is good ! (Sometimes its very difficult to feel how awesome you are when you are married) ;) :P
Anyway been so many months !!! And a year has passed by !!!!! AND
Learnt nothing so new! BUT ...
Life has no meaning/rule  but what you make out of it !!!.... Everyone looks forward to something ...when you are still searching ... Its okie to settle down with what you have got !
You are under a roof ! <√>
You have friends to complain !<√>
You pass on everyday non-suicidal<√>

Comm'on most people dnt share food to unsheltered humans !
You are having awesome life !

Like i said your life your rules !
Sussh