Stuck between 2014 & 2016

I have a paper full of resolutions still unsolved for 2015 

And they say it's getting over in 21days...

Still stuck in between everything I own 

Stuck between two circles 

One with him 

Another circle that swirls around my dear friends ! 

I'm supposed to have this phase a long way before !

Yet here iam 

Trying out every possible psychology to be in social phobia 

Things never go as you plan ... Does it ? 

Each and every 365 pass and I'm still wondering what to do with what I have....

My mom still keeps saying "Even this would pass " 

Stay strong ! 

So I guess my 2016 is just going to being myself and let it pass ! 

Coz there is nothing better to do after all it's your life in which you can make a million mistake and still love it ! 

I guess !!!!!! 

It's damn easy to con every human in the world but yourself ! 

Sussh

 

When you have to disown .....

You don't have to loose everything ..

You don't have to ask for help to a complete stranger for water ...

You don't have to wait for your next meal....

You don't have to get scared of water and leave everything behind.....

You don't have to give up a life earned house under a loan to survive ......

You shouldn't have to leave a BMW car in the middle of a road for life.......

You shouldn't live under incomplete roof being scared........

You shouldn't  stay locked up in one crore worth house when there are shelters under your house..........

You weren't supposed to walk inside waters scared of reptiles.........

You weren't supposed to have 'no pets' rules, because it's very disheartening to see them shiver and cry for food.........

You shouldn't be worried about your future that you have planned for years...........

NO it's so unfair 

You shouldn't have everything and run for life 

Nor 

Should you be scared for life just because you don't have what they call money  

Life is so unfair 

You are not supposed to, and yet it happened .... 

But to see everything happen in front of your eyes, each and everything .....

It's time that we realise it's more than money to be human 

The LIFE you have now is all you have ..... 

Nothing else ..... 

Just a 24 hour normal rain would do, to crush all your dream to bring everything down to your knees ......... 

You don't need guns and blast to show you .....

As simple as water air and the Mother Nature is enough to show you ....

This life is all you have 

Appreciate what you have now 

Start living each moment 

Rather planning 5 years from now .....

You never know what would happen ....

Trust me you would never know .....

What you really have now is precious enough to go forward ! 

Disown everything ... The high paid job, the highly respected property, that lousy car...

What is it all worth ?? Your life ?? That smile you see in a selfie ???? 

Disown yourself to see what you have now .... 

It was very hard to see every single soul suffer not out of death but out of scare what might happen, being so unsure what will happen to what they owned .... 

When nature teaches you to just SHUT UP LISTEN and LEARN ..........

Love the precious time you have left 

Sussh 

YES! CHENNAI lost ....

We accept ...

Every Chennaite lost ...

Lost their time , lost their work, lost their selflessness, lost their ego, lost their fight for world .... 

Lost everything to stand together  

Above all we lost few souls.

Yeah maybe this natural disastrous is because of us ! .....

We saw how a common man could have his dream crushed ....

We saw how a man with a worthy car could get stranded in the middle of nowhere that he thought was infront of his home....

We saw people leaving their home,all their generation, for life ........

With few spirits still lost. Yes we lost.

There is just not a single soul that dint step into waist deep water for someone else .....

Even if there were,those people who were scared to step out, ...... We were there 

No one stepped out for self recognition 

No one stepped out for business 

No one stepped out for profit

No one cared who dint...

No one cared who couldn't ....

None of us cared who caused this.....

None of us cared who saw what's happening to us .....

CHENNAI. That is  cut off the rest 

That is  cut off power 

That is cut off networks 

Someone amongst us,out there is still helping

That trust is there with everyone of us 

That trust keeps everyone of us moving ...

We would still thrive 

We would still survive anything together 

But yeah as you say we lost ... Drowned 

we lost .... We lost few souls 

Nevertheless  ....

We would loose no more to stand together ....

Even if it's the nature .......

we are sticking together .....no matter what comes by 

Even this .. we would cross .... 

That hope is why we call us not just chennai but "NAMMA CHENNAI" 

Dot 

Sussh/ from CHENNAI 

When my DAY is finally there !

Lyf is too complicated ! 

It's too hard to forget and nearly impossible to forgive !! 

That's all about lyf you have to understand you might think !!!

But sticking to one thing that brings you happiness when you can't even try to smile. 

And 

Being with someone with whom you can be at ease .... 

The one person with whom you can say 'No' anytime you feel like ...

The one person with whom you can feel comfortable being ugly whatsoever but they don't have to say you are 'beautiful' but just think 'I LOVE YOU' 

The one person with whom you can fight and beat the to death yet they cook and pack your lunch just because you are sick 

THATS ALL THAT MATTERS ! Doesn't it !!??????

Love !!!

That's lyf I can say !!! 

And yeah you can complain all you want but when your day comes and still you say 'stick a fork in me I'm done and happy ' 

That's lyf ! 

I'm ter !!!!

Cherish what you have ! 

Tc !

When my world is silent

It's not who stood by you when you can stand on yourself !

And to come to that stage is so painful and difficult ......

But without my better half it would have been soooooo tearing apart ! 

MY BETTER HALF ! Is the man who is still standing with my bipolar to just see me smile ! 

 

It just started with our eyes looking at each other of course ! LOVE AT FIRST ! 

That is what it was for me though ! 

It indeed is STILL ! 

Every memory was sooooo in the clouds with the Angels ! 

These two WORDS ! That spoiled a bit of us is .... MARRIAGE and our SOCEITY ! 

Marriage is what our society got us into ! 

So we finally got into a lantern where we made our own rules !!!!

Yeah ! Took us time to get into it ! 

Not all your fingers are same ! 

So we are like that kind ah couple ! 

We just don't fit in your books ! 😜😜😜😜 and since I get it now ! I don't care anymore ! 

Isn't it our lyf !!!!

So we thought we'd make our lyf KING size !!!!!

And here we are !!!!! 

3yrs after marriage !!!!!

And 9 awesome years of tolerating each other !!!!!!!

PLEASE BE JEALOUS OF US  😜😁😁😍😍😍😍😍

WITH SOOOOOO MUCH LOVE RYT NOW 

When you need look through....

BIt doesn't matter how well off you could be to support someone !

All that matters is when you hold out your shoulder for someone when they need it without saying  !!!!!

You can't do that for life if you don't love them !!!!

Well !!!! This is basic philosophy s**t everybody knows !

But how many are fooled with people who do that for benefit or for temporary clinging !!!!

Exactly !!!! When you shift 9 schools  and survive boarding school 7years you would understand who express truthfully !!!!!! That comes naturally !!!!

After, sooo many years , only you would be able judge them after all!!!!!!! 

It's always hurtful to come across such fake ones !!!!

Nevertheless it's okie !!!!!! 

Even if you don't know there are people like MAYA'S mom (quoting to a Tamil horror movie ) to look after in our shadows !!!! 

When you have the heart to accept the soul in your shadow , you attain a maturity !

To the ones who protect 

Tc

Sussh

When yu jus feel it

Feeling soooo eternal right now !!!!  I tell you !!!!!

Oh ! By the way I'm talking about feeling the love !!!!!!!

When I couldn't keep a secret and I had to talk to my love !!!!!!

 My machiiiiii !!!!!! 

It's hard to understand love and I have not felt this relived since 1990 (I'm that old 😜) 

When you talk to your love for few minutes and the pain just vanishes like HARRY POTTER waving his BROOMSTICK  that's love !!!!!! And being high in love is the purpose everyone is fighting for ! But they just don't realise it yet !...... It's that to have one person, when you talk to and you realise that's it every craphead has just disappeared ! Just like that !!!!!!! With breaking one knuckle !!!!!!

It's not what you own that vanishes in paper that matters ......it's the love that just strengthens with more words !!!!!! 

I think that's what makes us so different from everything else....... Because we can express that magic with words .....

When your magic of life is love ....... 

Keep talking ....... 😁😁😁😁😁

soooo happy in love with my machiiiiii right now ! 

Sussh