Your dark glowing eyes

Is it dark brown or light black ?

I dont know ! Whats so taunting and disturbing!

Disturbing everytime when it glows in your smile! 

Disturbing whenever it glows amidst every rain!

The value I put on you, who looks into the eye for every conversation with me! Is totally worth all the risk! 

All the pain!

Especially All the scar!

Because from the day i knew you, i just know what i was looking into! 

It was not the laughter, not the smile when you see me, but something thats not explainable!

Genuine!

And i would know whenever you look away from me and tell me anything with a smile! 

If its a lie that you fool your heart with! Or just the world is too cruel for your truth! 

Trust your eyes that someone seeks!

They know! And I know ......

Because there is nothing you could tell me that your eyes doesnt! 

And nothing, that your eyes does!

Your eyes talks more than your heart does,

To me

Sussh

Never say no to love

Right or wrong ...

Dont waste your time thinking what to do or what to say....

Just be in love ....

With everyone....

With all the little things someone does for you.....

Never say no....

Dwelling in the past ....

Welling up with unsaid love....

Gets you nowhere at peace

Life will give you a million chances

Dont suffer in the end for one more chance....

Because being in love for someone is the most beautiful gift ....you can give

It will make you stronger

It will make you leap reaching the sky....

It will make you alive ....

Say it now ....

Say it every time...

With lots of words and a beautiful smile....

Loudly expressed Love, never hurts

Sussh

The fight, the smile & the love that HE brings

There is a huge difference !

And an ocean of similarities!

There is a story behind every step you take !

And it all starts from........

The first hand you held to walk in a beach full of slutty sands that made you trip!

The first love that brought you closer to any man who reminded the clutch your hold got and that reminded you of every trust!

The first shoulder that taught you to cry anytime, you felt like letting it all go when you need to!

The first kiss ! The kiss that taught you men! Men who cares to snuggle at your head and kiss ! 

Dad! My dad!

The man behind everything

The man behind every girls dream

And that he made it come true

My dad just ......

Not a survivor!

Not the fittest! 

Like Charles Darwin said- "survival is the fittest"

Nah ah! My dad he proved everyone, that just some theory is so wrong in this world full of just normal men!

But .....

He is a fighter !

He would fight the demon in the world to  protect just four 

There is just four girls in his life

Just four....

And nothing else matters 

When they are together

When they are smiling

When they value just each and every second 

When they just cry looking at each other....

When they fight without words and sometimes without a sound.....

He would just fight the whole world for us 

Because he is a fighter 

He is a pillar

He is the man who taught us to trust every man in the world 

Without this man we know nothing !

The world , each and every breath we take .....

And that the words that came out without a noise would mean so much ......

Almost everything .....

And  anything about  how to fight life .....

Just like how he teaches us ....

Start from where you left smiling

Bull cart??

Roller coster???

Nascar race????

Life is not any of this ..... 

its very simple ......

Sometimes you breathe ....

Many times harder than you think......

Quiet often we forget ......

There are no endings and beginnings.....

Everytime you feel you should start from scratch 

You start from where you left smiling....

From where you jumped high in sky 

From where you  danced all night to make your feet dead

From where you sang all day about feeling eternal

From where you stopped breathing

From where you learnt what love was .....

Its okie when everything you start from seems different

From where you start again....

But it will be new

It will be peacefull 

It will give you a hope of sunshine

Just be there 

To watch the sunrise 

To shimmer the moonlight 

It might not be pink like you see today 

But it definetly WILL make you HAPPY whenever you see it FULL......

Because any fresh start will make your heart skip a beat 

Just like it did when you wanted ..,,,

That hope is what makes life smiling and eternal ....

Life will always be about memories 

Sussh

 

How To stop the soul search.

Growing up in a self-deported family is harder than you would imagine.....
Deported because nuclear family gone rogue ....
It's fun and frolic on the outside but deep down you would still be searching for the soul that's as deformed as yours....
Well no-one could come from that long line of lunatics....
The search stops when you realise ...no external force could turn your life upside down unless someone makes you fall on your back ...and you are not physics to follow all the laws...
And It's Okie if your past looks like a four year old artistic paint on the wall ...don't cry over ......like it's diamonds...
And it's absolutely Okie if you still stand in a que with a plate and a glass ... As long as it's not prison and you are not in for murder (  that would be cool though)....
About things that are yet to come ....Unless you are that type of a person who wakes up at the first beat of the first alarm in the morning, don't keep planning your future.... most of all,
Stop worrying about what people would say or think or do or crap ..... Unless of course they bring a gold coffin to your funeral party .... then yeah you should probably be nice to them ....
Learn to be with people who would actually put some effort to activate the two facial muscles (orbicularis oculi and oris) to smile .... those muscle activated smiles are called genuine smile ...rest are just social smile meaning FAKE ....
Yeah only when you stop the search outside and look inside of you .... you would  come up with all these kinds of crazy stuff  .

Be crazy. Be independent. Be detached. Be you.
Because the rest is just social.
Susshibelle

The pain of smiling .....

The day when you have to walk around like nothing happened in your life that is so painful to swallow but you smile anyway with a deep eye and a red cheek ...
When every perception of pain is stimulated ... but all the tear left in you is swallowed back and runs straight to your heart like a hundred syringe piercing all the muscle in it, just so, to show how much alive you are.......
I don't know which is more painful , the stab to  your heart or the cry behind your laughter .....
Sometimes, it's that you have to live with everything that has happened and you still have to continue, to go back being who you were..... that is what is more painful.... The ache behind your every smile ..... The regret behind your every success..... The sink behind your every jump of excitement......
Sometimes It's hard to walk over .... unbearable  to go through .....  to let go.......is not the answer ......    
Some pain is impossible to get over ....
Some pain we have to live with ....

Remember there is always a pain behind every smile ....
Sussh

3 women and my dad !

When a guy tells yu " dude it's not a good idea , don't get married " just shut up and listen to him . 

He is right, like always !!!!

A father with three girls .... Respect him no matter what ! 

My dad deserves a standing ovation !!!!! 

Because a wife who never listens to him , the daughter who is always stubborn and me always hating him .... Yet he manages to make us all happy ! A man who could think of us only .

A man , even when checking out a girl , could only think of how nice that dress could be for my wife ! Or a earring which could be glittering dangle on my daughter !!! That's all he could think !!!! 

It's overwhelming to see him smile and laugh sooo on one day with me ! Sharing a two month story ! 

It's so rare to find a man like that ! How much ever he flips ... He still makes me laugh when I need it !!! 

With so much love for him

Sussh