Not only do you mean a lot to me

So much more than that! 

Its beyond the fact that you have a bigger place in my heart, to even think of replacing you i will need another heart and soul to do that! 

Then i would have to completely change my own self! 

I dont want that ! 

Because not only i dont want to replace you but im happy you are there at every thought at every second!

I dont think i will ever blush at someone and go all pink face when they look at me, like how your eyes pierce through every blood vessel to burst! 

My heart would never skip a beat and freeze me for a second like when you air kiss me good bye, for anyone else.

I couldn’t rhyme anyones heart beat with mine, which i do with yours, very often in my dreams. 

Its the comfort your waves give, when you are around .... i find it too addictive..:.

Our time together so not best, so not longer ....

Yet i find it difficult to let go of you..... and the memory you have given me..... 

being occupied the whole day..

Yet you creep me out at the back of my mind the whole longest day i ever had....

Life will turn out much more beautifull

With memories tingling your blood  flow!

Sussh

How To stop the soul search.

Growing up in a self-deported family is harder than you would imagine.....
Deported because nuclear family gone rogue ....
It's fun and frolic on the outside but deep down you would still be searching for the soul that's as deformed as yours....
Well no-one could come from that long line of lunatics....
The search stops when you realise ...no external force could turn your life upside down unless someone makes you fall on your back ...and you are not physics to follow all the laws...
And It's Okie if your past looks like a four year old artistic paint on the wall ...don't cry over ......like it's diamonds...
And it's absolutely Okie if you still stand in a que with a plate and a glass ... As long as it's not prison and you are not in for murder (  that would be cool though)....
About things that are yet to come ....Unless you are that type of a person who wakes up at the first beat of the first alarm in the morning, don't keep planning your future.... most of all,
Stop worrying about what people would say or think or do or crap ..... Unless of course they bring a gold coffin to your funeral party .... then yeah you should probably be nice to them ....
Learn to be with people who would actually put some effort to activate the two facial muscles (orbicularis oculi and oris) to smile .... those muscle activated smiles are called genuine smile ...rest are just social smile meaning FAKE ....
Yeah only when you stop the search outside and look inside of you .... you would  come up with all these kinds of crazy stuff  .

Be crazy. Be independent. Be detached. Be you.
Because the rest is just social.
Susshibelle